I don't think i'll die without friends.
But sometimes its a part of life to have friends.
This i don't understand, why is it i'm always the one without friends? I mean true friends. Seriously i don't think i have any true friends in this world.
Is there something wrong with me? What is it that i have to change ?
I don't fake with friends, i don't get rude with friends.
The only problem is that i cannot hang out till midnight? I can't go out always? is that the problem?
Is being fake the only thing i can do to have friends?
But i don't want fake friends. i want friends that are truthful to me and i want friends that can be trusted.
Why izzit i always have to listen to my friends complain?
Why izzit when i'm hurt too but every other single person seems more severe than me?
Why izzit everyone's problem is more important than me?
Is it because i have a boyfriend? that i look more happier?
That you all think 'oh she's got her boyfriend we don't need her'?
but other people have boyfriends too! but why they seem to get more appreciated?
Have any of you think that i'm also a victim too?
Always when there is a problem you all are victims not me?
I don't need any attention at all? Because i don't really complain?
Because i choose to not take away others' attention?
Because i choose to listen?
Does this mean i'm not important and i don't have to be cared?
Why izzit when you make friends you have to be all secretive?
Why are there always secrets kept from me?
I don't mind you not telling me, but i mind you all purposefully keeping it away from me!
I don't wanna affect my feelings because of friends, i don't wanna get too involved. seriously i don't.
But feelings , sometimes are things that i cannot control. Why izzit i care too much about others but noone cares about me?
Why do i have to do this and deserve this?
Why are there friends that will lie to you and be fake to you and talk bad about you, but you still be super best friends with them? Why ?
Why are people so fake in this world?
Why when others complain they always get the attention?
Why am i always victimized but no one knows and realize?
Why i don't choose to hurt my friends but no one cares about whether it hurts me or not.
yes, i should really get a life. i don't have a life. because i don't fake?
I don't understand this world. What kind of sorcery is this?
Yea, you may think i'm seeking for attention now. But who cares anyway?
No one thinks about my feelings anyway.
