我的道理就是垃圾

远距离的感情， 一向不被看好。
但是当人在当中，当然希望自己可以证明这种感情能受那点的折磨

我以为，我掌控得很好
我以为，只要互相信任，什么事都可以很顺利地进行
我一心想，我不在你身边，我不能自私，霸着你不放。
但是只能怪我给你的自由太多

让你随心所欲跟女生朋友单独出去， 让你成为她们的司机，让你随便和她们联络， 让你去女生家过夜。 这全都是我放手让你去做的。
你们可以说我笨说我傻， 但我觉得，公平起见， 我让你做，当然你也会让我去做这些事。
我的意思不是因为我要做而让你去做，因为我在这里朋友没多几个，我根本没这个机会去做这些事
我也会常常怀疑自己说是不是有问题，怎么让你那么放肆
连我都没有机会让你做我的司机！！！ 别的女生就在分享我应有的福。

这些一切统统不算，因为是我自己让你去。
我为了功课烦恼，半夜三四点在学校图书馆，收到你的电话竟然跟我说你跟你的前女友出去。
身为一个正常人，我想每个人都会很介意吧！
连问都没有问过我的意见，你就只是打来通知我一声
这回我想，我真的做错了，我真的让给你太多的自由
我给你那么多自由不是应该的！是我相信你，也不想做个野蛮女友，才让你去做的。
我在朋友面前，在功课面前，在图书馆里面，那刻我真的不知道怎么回应好。
我只能眼睁睁让你去

结果去到哪里，也只是给我个信息通知声。说去吃饭，去看戏，去喝茶。你有问过我吗？
我知道我给你自由，但是你是不是要自己检讨一下，她是你的前女友， 做事情是不是要避忌一下！两个人单独去做这些事，也就只是给我个信息通知，我是什么？你妈？
说真的这些一切一切不是重点！
重点是你对我的态度，越来越差，我现在想，我们做人就是这样吧。 就好像父母给我们太多自由，当他们随口问问的时候我们都会发脾气说你管这么多干嘛！对吧

跟前女友出去一天，五点凌晨都没有你的消息。换作是你，你会怎样！
我打了很多通电话给你，你都没接，我心里已经不知道可以想什么了
一个正常人，我不是超女，我也会心乱。我承认我怀疑你已经不属于我
但是在那个情况你要我怎么想！！
过后你终于接了，你说你在睡觉，不舒服。
我很生气，我怀疑你在骗我，我怀疑你在她家
你才觉得说，难道你没有给我信息说你回到家了？
我生气你， 我盖你电话
盖了过后盼望你会打回给我，但是。。我的房间好安静。
你睡回去了。
第一次你没有打回给我，另一天才找我。
第二次你没有打回给我，另一天也没有找我。直到我看到你facebook被tag， 才知道你在跟朋友开开心心
难道我要允许第三次，第四次吗？
到时，我看你应该需要一个月后才找我了吧！

我知道这番话你都听过。
我为什么要重说。 因为我真的很心痛
经过了那一次，我提出分手，我说我不能允许第三次的出现。
最终我还是忍不住跟你在回一起。但是这次我自私了，我不让你在随便跟女生谈天
你也答应我的
一次不忠，百次不容。
我发现你食言， 你说过不在跟那女子联络，你还要和她wechat！！！！！！！！！！
你他妈的，我看到我的心多痛你知道吗

我觉得我做你女朋友，真的很没面子
我管不好自己的男朋友， 现在我的男朋友不听我说了！
我知道
我犯过错
我不是完美的
但是我知错
我有在改
我很安分守己！
但你，
我不知道你什么时候变得那么坏
做错事了，还要大声说话理直气壮
完全没有悔改之心，你口头上说你知错了不会再犯，但是就还说我没有道理
说根本不需要搞到这么大件事
这不需要，难道要我真正失去你了才可以搞到这样吗！我在保户自己
我根本不需要受这样的痛苦
我对你好不是理所当然
对你不好就不用说道理！
你三番四次当我没有到，我每次说要分手你都当没件事
当我说的话废
我都让你
但这次我再不为自己站起来，我以后没有地方可以站了

我对你那么好，是因为我知道你和别的男生不一样
但是，现在
你跟其他人一般见识！不值得我爱
到了最后，你还说你没有变，你只是在说道理
那，我的道理怎么说????
没天理了吧！？ wtf. 我不要再让你欺负
对不起，让你欺负的 我不在了

Becoming a Chef

Hello folks! If you have been following me on twitter, instagram and facebook, you'll know what my title is about! 

Yep, since I was in the UK, I have been forced to cook myself. 

And, I made it quite an interest for myself! 

I have been looking for different recipes for different dishes to cook so that I can get the different satisfactions and also get different food to eat! 

teehee. :D 

 see his alien face.
So as usual, I will say something totally not relevant to my post first, just to show some daily pictures of mine . hahaha

 Had this really sunny day XD

 And I went to this Bonfire night, its basically a celebration for the western people.
My friend told me it was about some guy trying to burn down the uk parliament but failed.
So it basically became a celebration to the people. haha Weird right

 It was like a 40 minute walk to the place.
This is the Curry Mile, the place where a lot of Arabian food exist.

 It was basically a funfair , like we have in  Malaysia, but with super cold weather .

 They had fireworks and a bonfire going on that night. didn't take any pictures cuz it was just too cold, and I was to pissed off by the people cuz it was too crowded and everyone was pushing me.
Probably because I was the most 'yeashecanbepushed' girl there.

 and apparently, my room has a weird species of mushroom having a party.

 Creepy right, friends are telling me cook it -.-

 Aight! The show starts now! and will like stop half way and continue again!
This is my way of writing alright! hahah . This is 姜葱鸡 with normal cincai vegetables la.

 This is 宫保鸡, or whatever meat I have . haha

 Friends say I look thinner, Really? I'll be very happy hahahha

 ok kung pao again cuz I had no new recipes.

 Then there was this Christmas lights-on ceremony , basically its just the ceremony of lighting up the christmas lights in manchester la.
They had a concert with The Wanted there.
I saw them live! and Its free! hahah
but way too crowded!

 Mini koala! So cute

 Before lights on . dull santa

 People will just do anything to be able to see the show . XD haha

 After lights on

 Fireworks

 mua

 Shiny/Bright Santa!

 And of course with my baby's accompany everyday :D

 See? I even cook barley.

 Their Aquatics Centre! I wanna play the kid playground!

 Messing around with your reading :P

 This is my way home from school ~~

 Okay I don't know what is this judging by the way it looks.

 Trying to capture the guy behind me by faking a camwhore. hahah
He is handsome in real person.XD

 And my Italian lecturer who looks like Mr Bean.

 KAcauuuuu

 Very disturbing right? Don't read la! hhaa kidding la . please readddddddddd
I was trying this new editing app on my phone.
Its really nice and fun.
called LINE camera.
Go download!

 Camwhoring in class!

 And went to my Canadian friend's Birthday Party!

 Happy Birthday!

 LINE camera again. hahaha its fun!

 Went shopping one day, had soooooooooo many things even the plastic  bag tore, and I had to get a cab to get back home, and unfortunately, I was too busy taking care of my stuff, this old lady was crossing the road when she wasn't suppose to. So the taxi driver made a sudden stop, and I flew to kiss the glass separating me and the driver.

 This is what I get.
haihz. Was really depressed that day
Went home and cry alone. T.T
buhoo

 and this irritating bug made my life even worse! It was sticking onto my hair! WTF
I hate this.

 and this is Dubokki(spicry rice cake) with noodles!
Tried doing food that I like more to make my life happier!
Korean food!

 Was walking to school one day and I saw this. so cute , Its a machine that shredding tree branches into.... pieces of small wood. haha how to name those .

 Baked chicken!

 Japanese Takoyaki! and also Korean pancake! which taste really weird cuz the pancake is like sour. O.o

 Lamb Stew!

 Getting really windy nowadays!

 Butter Chicken! Am I great or am I great!

 Did this in lecture!

 This although looks similar to the previous one, but its different! haha .
This time its Uncle Jang stye! Dak Galbi!

 Once again, my brother discovered weirdo mushrooms in my room againnnnn.

 This time even on the wall!! My room needs me! I have to go back T.T
Without me its getting crazyyy

 And my boring saturday

 See how nice I can like edit my photos! hahah . LINE camera alsooo . haha

Went to the Christmas market in Manchester .
It was, not bad la . but they close really early like8-9pm which makes me really frustrated.
What for you close so early? Christmas markets are supposed to be pretty only at night!
So open la until midnight!
And I think I saw someone died in the Christmas Market covered by aluminium blanket, with a lot of people and police surrounding the body.
I saw legs! It was scary la, suddenly in Christmas Market something like that happened. But I'm not really sure about it . And I think some lady was crying beside the body .
:(

I hope I am wrong.
I hope everyone lives happily ever after ! except for my enemies and people who hates me . hahaha
So! any good recommendations for me? I'm running out of ideas of what to cook!
My friend was saying, he thought I was studying cooking here , haha which makes me really sad cuz my studies are way more worse than my cooking :(
howwwwwww.
Till the next post,
god please bless me I wanna graduate.
Its so sad I cannot attend my convocation back in Malaysia.
Please allow me to graduate and attend my convo here!!!!
Thank you very much !